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Missionary-ing

A repost from my original blog:

Hi there. It’s been a while, I know. But fear not! My senseless neglect of my…um…imaginary readers has come to an end! So brace yourselves, or self, for I am about to unleash what is likely to be my longest post yet. You see, I’m going on a mission. In a few short weeks we’ll find out when and where. And in the mean time, I get to wait and ponder my existence. I had knee surgery in February; I’ve had a lot of time to…ponder.

If some of my non-Mormon imaginary friends decide to read this, let me first explain what a mission is in the Mormon context. You see, we as Mormons believe in a three tier system of exaltation. We also believe that in order to reach the top and preferred tier, certain ordinances must be performed either by the individual in question in his mortal life, or by others in the individual’s behalf post-mortem. God wants all of his children to have the opportunity to achieve their desired exhalation, thus it is important that everyone be given the opportunity to be a part of this great cause. In order to give that opportunity to each when they are ready, God has called for young men and women to spend 2 years abroad teaching those who would listen.

I can see my imaginary non-Mormon friends’ eyes glassing over, so let me put it in simple terms. I’m going on a mission to be God’s door to door salesman. 😉 haha. The thing is, in order to be an effective missionary, one must have a very close and open relationship with God, so as to be guided to individuals who are ready to hear, and be able to reach that individual’s heart and soul in an individual way. It’s a tough job for the non-psychic! Thankfully, this relationship is in fact achieved by all missionaries who truly want it.

So think about it: 2 years with the thinnest barrier between one and God that most will achieve in their entire lives, all while setting aside the cares of the normal world to be enveloped by the loving work. 2 years invested, and I come out with a healthy testimony of the godhead and the gospel, a full understanding of my relationship with Him, and 2 years of experience being independent. Not to mention the lives it helps. Even if you don’t believe in my message, you have to admit that for me, it’s an offer that is hard to pass up.

I didn’t think that a few years ago though.

I grew up home schooled. The only friends I knew were the neighborhood boys I saw at church. I was nerdy, and over-articulate, and couldn’t play sports well. I didn’t fit in well with my predominantly sporty ward. I spent most of my early teen years desperately trying to fit in. Church was a social experiment for me. I had my first crush on a girl I knew at church…and that led to my first inevitable rejection. Needless to say, once I went to a high school full of teens with a zealous love of school and all things nerdy, my social life at church seemed…well completely pointless. I fit in at school. I didn’t at church. I stopped going. Turns out that even though I’d spent my life growing up in the church, my entire testimony was based on lessons taught by my parents and church leaders, not a drop based on my own experiences.

I really lost interest in religion for a while. My best friend in high school though, a girl who’d experienced a lot of what the rest of the world had to offer; sex and alcohol, had turned her life around and was one of the most spiritually mature people I knew. She loved church and everything the church had to offer, all without the judgmental attitude of those who haven’t really experienced sin. She was really an anchor in my drifting life.

In senior year, I took a Ethics and Values class that was required by UCAS to graduate. This class introduced me to the world’s quest to find the true nature of God and morality itself. It made me think of good and evil in ways I’d never thought about before. Every lesson, my thoughts turned to countless family-home-evening lessons my parents had taught me long ago. So much of what they had taught me made these questions that confounded the world’s greatest philosophers easy to answer. Mormonism brought sense to a seemingly chaotic world.

Still, despite these breakthroughs, church meetings, and indeed a mission, still seemed…well…pointless in my life. If God loved us unconditionally and wanted an individual relationship with us, what was the point of church attendance? And what was the point of organized religion for that matter? These answers didn’t come to me quickly. A religion class taught at BYU explained the point of organized religion to me: God’s plan for humanity and us was too complex to be adequately explained on an individual level, especially considering everyone has differing levels of spiritual receptivity. But still, if we all have the opportunity in our post-mortality existence to learn and accept the gospel, why do we need missionaries to convert people in this life? Why do we feel the need to convert everyone we meet?

I honestly didn’t understand the answers to this question until my tumultuous experience in Basic Training with the Army.

I’ve always believed in God. His plan for my life is way well explained to me through personal revelation to be otherwise. Thus, when I felt prompted to visit my local National Guard recruiter after an exciting chat with an Apache pilot in my ward, I didn’t hesitate to sign the dotted line in hopes of one day becoming a Black Hawk pilot. Honestly, I saw also it as a way out of this mission service thing that everyone wanted me to do. Surely I could attain the same level of maturity a the hands of those legendary drill sergeants! Haha, if only I knew what that actually meant.

I’ve never been an athlete. I tried every sport available growing up, hoping to find something I was good at. Sadly, I don’t think it’s in my genes. So needless to say, Basic caught my poor, out of shape body with a painful surprise. Everyone thought my pitiful PT scores and my struggles during those long days dripping work-out sweat onto our sleeping-bay floor were a symptom of my ‘not wanting it enough’. I had very few friends. My morale dropped quickly. Thankfully, I was allowed 2 hours of church attendance every Sunday. I still remember that first church service, 2 weeks into basic. I was so miserable. But when I walked into that basketball court floor on which we were having our sacrament meeting on, listening to a familiar hymn being played by the pianist, I honestly sat down on one of the back chairs, and sobbed my eyes out. I’d never felt a spiritual contrast that severe before. I felt so warm and peaceful…I don’t think I stopped crying once during those 2 hours. It was then that I realized why we Mormons attend church every week. That spiritual consistency in my week was the only thing that got me through basic. That and the loving letters sent by my parents each week.

Each Sunday school at basic, a room was set aside for priesthood blessings. I think I had a total of five during those ten weeks. During those blessings, and through my own personal prayers during the week over my tiny Book of Mormon, God let me know how important my service was to him. Both in the Army, and as a priesthood holder. More than that, he let me know that he wanted me on a mission, and me to become worthy and get the Melchizedek priesthood. He’d waited long enough. 😉

To be honest, Basic taught me more about my relationship with God than anything the Army had intended. I straightened up my life. I repented of some serious sins I’d committed during my inactivity. A week ago, I submitted my papers to serve a mission. After a stake president interview, they’ll be sent to the Quorum of the Twelve for my assignment. I’ve never been so excited for something in my entire life. I have no idea what the lord has planned for me, but I know it must be the best thing for me. He certainly cares and loves me with a love only a parent could understand. I guess I’ll learn about that too someday.

Well, to those expecting some more insightful wit (you know you love it), I’m sorry to disappoint. But I hope some of my imaginary friends will appreciate my own conversion story. Maybe next post will be funny. We’ll see how I’m feeling. 😉

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